Black and White
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I used to see things in this world in images of black and white. Like an old movie, or an old photograph, black and white images tend to hide the true emotion. It'd keep you guessing and wondering. I had a life that was like captured in some polaroid... black and white.
When I was growing up, I asked a lot of things about life. I asked about life, love, death, happiness... everything. I asked about God, I never even believed God existed. I was lost, I was in black and white.
I eventually found the answers to some of the questions I asked as I grew older. I met people along the way who somehow helped me directly and indirectly find the answers to my questions. People who touched my life with their wisdom, sane or otherwise. People who started adding little bits of color to my black and white life. People who I shall forever be grateful. People who I call friends.
Now, I still have most of the questions in my mind unanswered and I will continue to walk this earth in search of answers. The only difference is that now, I have added a little color to my once bleak existence. Now, I know I have people who I call friends who are always there to remind me that we all mature, eventually. I have found a direction. But even if I continue on this journey where there is no turning back, I would still cherish deep in my heart the days in my life when i started asking. The days when I was in black and white...
3 Comments:
i was wondering what the world could be if all the answers are there..
as human..we are quite inquisitive in being are we not?
so even the answers are right in front of us...we still have all
the uncertainties..what if's..
we have different views as you said good sir.
for myself, i always beleive that there is no such thing as "no choice"
maybe you are asking what is the connection of this phrase to "black and white".
in life we always have two options.
there's a yes..and a no..
there is good and evil.
so either way...in every occurence in our life..whether we like it or not..
our emotions and judgement are made from our own decision.
black and white. mysterious.
my life right now is in different shades of gray.the thing is that i know what to do..i know how i should feel...but as if my soul is hollow...
im looking forward to the day that there would be a touch of color in my life again.
is misery my choice? is it an irony of what i beleived in?
can't i not control my feelings anymore?
maybe strength is only as good as its weakness..
because the only one i got my strength from made me as weak as i am now.
Amen.
The abbot seems lost, but so is the rest of this hollow world.
We live by strength of people. By strength of the Source.
Life revolves around choices…and soulful judgement.
You either choose to soar through life, or lumber up with the rest of them poor souls…just as work is finding yourself a place in this world.
I must agree…that if life had all the answers, it would appear as grim as a black and white photo. But my word is good as an empty shell…as I am weak and stuck in my own selfish world of made answers.
But then again... color comes to life, as we live by strength of people and the Source.
Yes, in life we have to make decisions... Sometimes piece of cakes, sometimes tough as a rawhide. Sometimes we succeed, sometimes we end up regretting... curling by the bedside, crying in silence. Whatever decisions we make in this lifetime opens another chapter in our life's story. It's really up to us on how we conclude our stories.
To my first poster, life is not always colorful, nor is it always in black and white. It is a matter of following your will and trusting your heart. For always, there will be people around you who would never leave you... People who would go through hell and back with you. I'd say you have a colorful life. A life worth cherishing... Its just that you keep all the colors to yourself and painted your world in shadows. Open your heart and spill the colors out, you'll see how beautiful life can be. When life puts you down on your knees as it always will, why get up? Isn't it the best position from which to pray?
To my second poster... I am as lost as a tiny plankton in the open sea. I am struggling to find my way home. But I shall never give up until I can paint my palette with the colors of the rainbow once again. I have dwelt in the strengths of others once before, but now, I am trying to find my own personal strength without so much dependency on others... That way, I can touch other people's lives as they have once touched mine...
To you both, here's a little secret I have picked along the way, this maybe kindergatenish, but it affected my life a lot... " take each step at a time, right foot, left foot...God never made Tuesday before Monday..." I hope we'll all find true happiness. Carpe Diem to you both.
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